I hate school.

Mood - I hate it here....Ihateschoolsomuchcuzeverytimeigothereimfarawayfrommyfamilyandihavetodealwithpeopleswearingatmeandjustruiningmylife. I just wish I could stay home tomorrow.. I just don't like it there. My friends, of course Ill miss, the homework, not really, the bullies, I dun care about them. Swear-words and all that are beng sent to me. I get called a bi*ch. I didn't even do anything!!! I was just doing my hw... I just hate, hate, hate, hate today. In fact.. I'm crying. Right now as I'm typing. I just want to talk to Roy. If I talk to him I can just be happy again. He is just the life in my heart. If he hates me, I dunno if I;ll ever be happy again. I'm crying again. I cry like twice each week. Normally when Im in bed and everythings silent. I cry like there's no tomorrow. Why? Sumtimes about my mom's life, about my mum and dad's divorce, sumtimes about death, sumtimes about my g-parents, sumtimes about school, and sumtimes, even about how terribl I am and how I shouldn't live. I just wish and hope that I can meet Roy, tell him all my sadness in my life, and all frustration so he can help me. So I can feel safe. And happy. My mom is not here right now, and my sister is doing homework in sum other room. I'm pretty alone rite now. No one, no where, no anything. Whoever is reading this, I hope you can give words of encouragement so I can live happily again. I'll gre8ly appreciate it. U dun have to make an acc here, just e-mail me at takahashi_shema@hotmail.com. Even just a smile would be just fine. I'd appreciate it. Thanks alot. Oh yes, speaking of my sister, she got straight A's in her term 1. She's in gr.8. A real smarty. My mom bought a digital camera, and a scanner! So now I can show a photo of me, but she needs to buy a picture card first. I got my grad shirt as well! Its the tribal wings. Very pretty! But quite big... I bought the DeathNote japanese filmography. Its with real japanese people, its not anime. It's REALLY cool. I watched a part of it onli cuz my sister wants to see it too. So I'm gonna watch it with her l8er today. Maybe watching DeathNote can help me relieve my anger.. and sadness. Now, I'm going to work on my l8test video. Akutsu X Sengoku from Prince Of Tennis. The song is Savin' Me by Nickelback. I'm almost done so yea. I'm going to upload it on youtube, my username is AkiOfAutumn. Feel free to browse my vids. ^_^ I'm getting happier, not entirely......I hate school=Chestnut=E-mailMe